You can't live a double life.
Can't live it.
you shouldn't have to.
I can't think of any professions
other than being a spy,
a double life.
High Wycombe it quite isolated.
Everyone's out of High Wycombe,
range miles from anywhere.
At the time I've been talking about 1987, 88, 89 maybe.
There would be about
which the military knew.
Now, I don't know if the Air Force
of this action,
would deploy their Special Investigation
to shop units or cars within the vicinity
members of the armed forces going in.
They would do
to try and find any form
If they suspected you,
you had to be very careful
or what you you made phone calls
The biggest thing is you had to lie
And I hated that.
because you should be able to trust them.
And you couldn't because they
they were predominantly
And I found out years
again, RAF police, 4 or 5 bedrooms
down from me and,
at the same time and he was caught
I admitted,
but we didn't know each other.
We didn't know at all.
We could have offered some support.
Never knew, never spoke of.
So it was incredibly difficult.
I think the lying was the hardest bit
because you wanted to be
I was proud of my uniform,
My partner was proud of it.
You would want to involve those
to give you support to to be there
to understand your career,
But you couldn't.
You can’t, you know, he can’t come across to,
He couldn't visit the base.
you couldn't be proud of him.
He couldn't be proud of you.
That's no way to to serve your country.
