I didn't have a uniform to wear every day.
'Cause for 10 and a half years that I served
I wore the same blue tops, I wore the same gray trousers,
the same berets, the same number one hats.
And to actually decide what I wear every day
is a lot harder than you realize.
And I think from
being in that sort of,
having that routine that's taken away from you,
it's really tough.
You can easily sit on a sofa and watch TV all day.
You can easily,
yeah, 'cause you haven't got to do a bleep test again,
a fitness test.
You're kinda happy in a way about that
'cause they're not very nice.
I need to keep up with some fitness.
I was putting on weight, I was getting miserable,
and it was just a way, yeah,
the hardest thing to adapt is just
getting into a normal living routine.
Just learning to fill the day up with something.
You haven't got that, well at the time I didn't have a job.
So I couldn't actually,
I think I was just going to cafes all the time.
My plan was coffee and cake almost every day.
I suppose, yeah, my mum's at fault a little bit for that,
but she wanted to keep me busy.
I had to get out of the house,
and that was the main reason I had to get up every day.
I made sure I had to get up for a reason,
to travel somewhere, to see your family,
to go and meet at a friend's
that I haven't spoken to in a long time.
And yeah, you just have to go for it.